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Tuesday, March 27, 2012

One of those days....

It has been FOREVER since I have blogged! After Christmas break, we have been what feels like NON-STOP. Justin started coaching golf at BHS, which he absolutely LOVES! But it is very time consuming! And I have been working to get my ESOL endorsement online....and sweet ole Blakeley Grace has been NON-STOP as well!

The reason for my post today is its been one of those days....The emotional, stressful, just need to get home and hug my child kind of day. I don't hate teaching, or going to work (though I wish I could at least work part time), but I am definitely one of those people that envies the stay at home moms. However, over the last few weeks, I have come to realize that certain children in my class need me. Like REALLY need me. They have told me of their family problems at home. These problems would be hard enough for an adult to handle, and yet my 4th grade students are struggling at home with these issues. When my students are with me at school for 8 hours a day, I am not just their teacher...I am their mom, their friend, their shoulder to cry on, the one that they need to listen to them. Though I do wish I could stay at home with Blakeley all day long, I realize she doesn't need me like my students do. She lives in a warm and loving house, and gets to go play with her friends at day care. She doesn't have a care in the world. But my students, they need me...at least for right now.

I also stumbled across this blog from Georgia Grace Designs on Facebook called Loving Lexi. It is not so much the blog (though very inspiring, and it makes me want to adopt a little Chinese girl) but more so the song that is playing. It is a song by Christina Perri - A Thousand Years. These words made me cry like a baby. I know the song is about waiting for the love of you life (which I can relate to as well - love ya Babe!), but also that there is so much in our life that God has created for us to do and to be, and sometimes we have to wait to realize what that may be. I feel like I waited A Thousand Years to be Blakeley's mom, and I can't wait to be another little ones mom one day!



Any way, this I know I don't normally blog about things like this, but I felt compelled to share! Again, its just one of those days! :)

Thanks!

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